Right now, for some reason it's on my heart to write this, to just get it out. It's been 10 years now since I made a very unwise decision to give up on my marriage. (Thanking God again for being in control, because we do not make wise decisions on our own) So many things and reasons floated around in my head as to why this "worldy" decision was actually what was best for me at the time. I won't dish details. If you know us personally, you know the story. If you don't, you know the rumors, I'm sure. I came back, obviously.
I want to take a step back and just say that our marriage has definitely endured its huge amount of turmoil. We've hurt one another, even on purpose. We've given up, fought, cried, blamed, CHANGED, said horrible things, And just simply tried to completely shut God out. We've not gotten it completely figured out still. I know there's a long way to go, only 14 years in. I love this man. He has dealt, and put up with me and my own problems, and ultimately comes out loving me more than I ever imagined he would. God can give him the words to say that ease my heart. My children are blessed by this man, and I cannot begin to say blessed because that doesn't cover it. He isn't perfect, but most of the time I feel like he was perfectly made to fit me. I've watched him and his heart for so many different things and people, and I am amazed. He takes an extra step, walks an extra mile for the people he cares about. Even if it wouldn't be reciprocated.
Tonight my hope is that someone who was supposed to read this is reading it. You are sitting there miserable, or thinking of giving up, and thinking that they are never going to be the one for you or whatever it may be I don't know. What I do know is tonight, I don't have a name, or a specific reason, but I'm supposed to write this maybe because I've learned to love my husband and continue to do so. I've learned to thank God for him and praise my husband for whatever he is doing instead of focusing on what he isn't, and to honestly just be happy that in our family we do REAL. We fall, and we get back up and keep loving and it keeps getting better. We cherish each other, and with today's ways, social media, people not caring enough about people but caring just about what it "looks like" TO other people, sometimes THIS is a rare find. Don't give up. I was told it was ok to give up, and I want to be the one who is telling you NOT to. Let joy in, let GOD in and push through, because it may take a while, but I believe that he will make it worth it.
Again, this isn't for a status I saw, or anything I've heard or read... I climbed into bed preparing to crush candy and call it a night. I was then overwhelmed with the urge to write all of that. Just a reflection...? Possibly, but I believe that there was a reason, so I did. Goodnight y'all :)
Saturday, March 1, 2014
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Day 118
I can't believe it has been so long since my last post! Time is definitely moving right along.
Mark has been moved from an office to motor pool, so he is staying very busy, which is great!
He says time is going by much faster with more work needing to be done. I'm glad he's busier. I feel like I have so many things to keep me busy, but worry about his time crawling by.
Have you ever spent 118 days away from your spouse, children, or parents? I didn't know exactly what I was getting into when I agreed to take his hand and walk the rest of our lives together.
I do know a little now. I know deployment from a family perspective. It means keeping your phone by your side at all times, and running or tripping down the stairs when you run up and leave it downstairs. Sleeping with your phone on the loudest ringtone, and silently cursing those who text at random hours that are not him. Changing every plan when they do call, or having lunch with a friend and being completely ok with each other not speaking through the meal because one of your soldiers call. Sleeping with one eye and ears wide open because you are the "lone ranger", the one person to protect the babies you have sleeping in the rooms next door, or right beside you. It's sleeping with a million pillows on the bed that always seems so small when he wants to sleep in the middle, but has now become huge and you need some space filled, with the pistol loaded and nearby. Suddenly becoming the mom that will eat and/or destroy anything that tries to mess with her babies. Becoming a part time parent to the kids whose dads are also gone, and accepting that these ladies who are helping you parent, will most likely become sincerely special friends, and then move within a year or two. Making sure that you're children are emotionally full is another blog or book...
Keeping your own emotions in check and the worry for your soldier are uncontrollable. This is just some of it, but I'm sure you may be able to imagine.
God knows what he is doing, and I hope that I come out with more faith. I actually hope to be stronger, more selfless, bigger hearted, and more in love with my husband as well.
Right now I'm tired, yet hopeful that we are down to double digits before his return. It's hard, we miss him and he misses us and everyone else in his life.
I couldn't imagine half the things that we would go through, and conquer. Times when I thought we
weren't going to make it, and God laughed... apparently I knew so little. I'm in awe, and so very
thankful that I am not in control.
We've started school, ballet, and football. This makes for full schedules! Weddings and family visits over the next couple months add to our agenda, and then it'll be our turn to go pick up our hero before we know it. That day cannot come soon enough.
Goodnight :)
Sorry for my lack of posts!
Mark has been moved from an office to motor pool, so he is staying very busy, which is great!
He says time is going by much faster with more work needing to be done. I'm glad he's busier. I feel like I have so many things to keep me busy, but worry about his time crawling by.
Have you ever spent 118 days away from your spouse, children, or parents? I didn't know exactly what I was getting into when I agreed to take his hand and walk the rest of our lives together.
I do know a little now. I know deployment from a family perspective. It means keeping your phone by your side at all times, and running or tripping down the stairs when you run up and leave it downstairs. Sleeping with your phone on the loudest ringtone, and silently cursing those who text at random hours that are not him. Changing every plan when they do call, or having lunch with a friend and being completely ok with each other not speaking through the meal because one of your soldiers call. Sleeping with one eye and ears wide open because you are the "lone ranger", the one person to protect the babies you have sleeping in the rooms next door, or right beside you. It's sleeping with a million pillows on the bed that always seems so small when he wants to sleep in the middle, but has now become huge and you need some space filled, with the pistol loaded and nearby. Suddenly becoming the mom that will eat and/or destroy anything that tries to mess with her babies. Becoming a part time parent to the kids whose dads are also gone, and accepting that these ladies who are helping you parent, will most likely become sincerely special friends, and then move within a year or two. Making sure that you're children are emotionally full is another blog or book...
Keeping your own emotions in check and the worry for your soldier are uncontrollable. This is just some of it, but I'm sure you may be able to imagine.
God knows what he is doing, and I hope that I come out with more faith. I actually hope to be stronger, more selfless, bigger hearted, and more in love with my husband as well.
Right now I'm tired, yet hopeful that we are down to double digits before his return. It's hard, we miss him and he misses us and everyone else in his life.
I couldn't imagine half the things that we would go through, and conquer. Times when I thought we
weren't going to make it, and God laughed... apparently I knew so little. I'm in awe, and so very
thankful that I am not in control.
We've started school, ballet, and football. This makes for full schedules! Weddings and family visits over the next couple months add to our agenda, and then it'll be our turn to go pick up our hero before we know it. That day cannot come soon enough.
Goodnight :)
Sorry for my lack of posts!
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Day 81
It's been awhile... Marks down from having to miss everything. July is our month, and he isn't here. In the past couple weeks, we've been extremely busy. We've been back and forth of course to MS. Mark's parents have been to Texas to see their other son off to Afghanistan as well. You just thought your day was hard.
I just got through singing what was obviously the most horrible "ants go marching" song judging by the way my baby girl balled up and cried because I didn't sing it as good as daddy. I finished and managed to get a smile, now she's out. They've been playing nonstop with their friends, our neighbors, our family.. One in the same. She's wiped out. I'm so glad that she is spending these days so busy that they go by faster than had she been alone. Kyle too. He's had a rough couple weeks! That boy busted up the entire left side of his face on a 2 story water slide at Stacy's kids birthday party... Yeah, the same eye we just went and had checked out a while back after getting stabbed with a plastic sword. We go for X-rays Monday morning. I think he may be rethinking football this season. He says his face feels jiggly. I guess we'll have to wait and see.
We also celebrated Lexie's 5th birthday party, as well as my little brother and his fiancé buying their very own home! Our free time is spent with Ari and her kids now. We cook, eat, watch movies that our hubbies would rather not watch with us. We pretty much fill every gap, and cry over everything. Today we went to the soldier show, which is an entire concert/play put on by a group of talented soldiers. It was very good, and very emotional. I impulsively bought some bedroom furniture after that. Happened to come across it online, and they delivered it! I couldn't imagine trying with just Ari and myself, even with the help of our little tough guys.
Still with the busy day we managed to squeeze in a great home cooked meal which included Fresh cucumbers and squash cornbread thanks to the garden in Dani's backyard. We picked at least 7 this afternoon. I'm just glad all of her things are inside the fence, because my mini garden I had going in the front yard kept getting devoured by deer, along with whatever other plant may look appetizing. My flower bed is looking pitiful.
I'm finally off to bed now, was hoping by some chance my hubby's plans had changed and he would be able to talk on FB, but he's got a busy day. Pray for him, along with these other soldiers. Had our 4th blackout the other day, then news about a missing soldier here at Campbell found dead. Prayers for all of those families. So sad.
I just got through singing what was obviously the most horrible "ants go marching" song judging by the way my baby girl balled up and cried because I didn't sing it as good as daddy. I finished and managed to get a smile, now she's out. They've been playing nonstop with their friends, our neighbors, our family.. One in the same. She's wiped out. I'm so glad that she is spending these days so busy that they go by faster than had she been alone. Kyle too. He's had a rough couple weeks! That boy busted up the entire left side of his face on a 2 story water slide at Stacy's kids birthday party... Yeah, the same eye we just went and had checked out a while back after getting stabbed with a plastic sword. We go for X-rays Monday morning. I think he may be rethinking football this season. He says his face feels jiggly. I guess we'll have to wait and see.
We also celebrated Lexie's 5th birthday party, as well as my little brother and his fiancé buying their very own home! Our free time is spent with Ari and her kids now. We cook, eat, watch movies that our hubbies would rather not watch with us. We pretty much fill every gap, and cry over everything. Today we went to the soldier show, which is an entire concert/play put on by a group of talented soldiers. It was very good, and very emotional. I impulsively bought some bedroom furniture after that. Happened to come across it online, and they delivered it! I couldn't imagine trying with just Ari and myself, even with the help of our little tough guys.
Still with the busy day we managed to squeeze in a great home cooked meal which included Fresh cucumbers and squash cornbread thanks to the garden in Dani's backyard. We picked at least 7 this afternoon. I'm just glad all of her things are inside the fence, because my mini garden I had going in the front yard kept getting devoured by deer, along with whatever other plant may look appetizing. My flower bed is looking pitiful.
I'm finally off to bed now, was hoping by some chance my hubby's plans had changed and he would be able to talk on FB, but he's got a busy day. Pray for him, along with these other soldiers. Had our 4th blackout the other day, then news about a missing soldier here at Campbell found dead. Prayers for all of those families. So sad.
Monday, July 8, 2013
Day 68
Relief today... That word can mean so much. When a friend's husband has been injured, along with others, when you know you're on a blackout for the third time in a month, when you've missed the last call he tried to make and can only feel sick until you hear them.
Ari spent the night again last night. One big family, and we've been out of town celebrating Kyle's birthday for most of the last week. He's my little firecracker :) my Fourth of July baby, and couldn't be any other child but ours! Aside from his dislike for seafood, the qualities that exude from that little boy make me think of Mark all the time. He is so much like his daddy it makes me so proud. Since he is older, I keep him "informed" to keep him from being scared. I don't want him to think his daddy is always in battle like they show on movies.
It's hard to focus. I'm sitting here writing, and keep feeling stumped, tripping over my emotions. You can't be more proud, scared, helpless, humbled, weak, and incredibly strong all at the same time, and I know Kyle is going through most of those same emotions as he matures with this deployment. Mark said to me the other day, after our second blackout, that I need to use these opportunities to help teach him how to pray. That statement meant so much. I want my baby to pray, but realistically, when I'm praying, I am praying that it isn't my husband. That it is NOT my children's daddy. I'm praying that Gods plan includes him going over there to make our marriage and family communication stronger, and simply that. Any other God fearing woman is praying the same thing, and probably feeling guilty that its almost like she's wishing it on another family, but we aren't. We don't want anyone to get hurt, but war is real. These crazy people over there are real, and they believe they are doing something extraordinary by performing these horrible atrocities. It's sickening, but praying is the only action that I can take against it. I support my soldier, I love him, but I still hate this war. That is all.
We've tried to have a great week even though daddy is gone. July is our month! We got married and had both of our babies this month. So we celebrated for my anniversary, and Kyle's birthday the rest of the week. We went to chili's & sky zone on the 3rd, and went blueberry picking, visited moms where he rode all around on the 4wheeler, rested up and did cake with granny & pawpaw, then off to Stacy's for some fun with friends and fireworks. Friday we drove back home and unloaded, hung out with our neighbors and watched the weather waiting for it to clear up so we could go to the fireworks show on post. It did, and we went. Saturday started out a little crummy, just one of those days where I'm just feeling down, but after a phone call with my love and My extended deployment family time, we ended up having a good day. Cracker Barrel, shopping, milkshakes, and rock of ages.
Here it goes, all the stuff that I try to remember when he is gone to keep me from feeling blue...
I can watch awesome things like rock of ages without him glaring at me wondering why in the world I would want to watch this ridiculous movie. Instead I watched it with Ari, and we sang every time they did! I don't have to shave nearly as often. Winter deployments are best, because then its cold, so bathing suits and shorts aren't in the picture. Having sleepovers with your friends is fun, and she doesn't snore or stink OR flail wildly in her sleep leaving me with overnight battle wounds. I don't have an incredible meal ready for the table at dinner time, because kids are easily impressed, so all that fuss over what to prepare is gone while he's away. My bathroom is my very own, and I'll admit that I've even stuck some of his junk in a different closet so I have more room. My next task may be to sneak home some new bedroom furniture, and see if he notices when he gets home ;)
Just kidding love... I'll try and consult you first!
I hope to spend tomorrow getting everything prepped for Lexie's birthday in just 9 more days now. We're a little behind since she's so indecisive. Now she just wants to have a party and go to the park?? Weird kid, but yay for easy planning! We're headed back to MS for our best friends bash for their kiddos soon.
Goodnight everyone :)
Ari spent the night again last night. One big family, and we've been out of town celebrating Kyle's birthday for most of the last week. He's my little firecracker :) my Fourth of July baby, and couldn't be any other child but ours! Aside from his dislike for seafood, the qualities that exude from that little boy make me think of Mark all the time. He is so much like his daddy it makes me so proud. Since he is older, I keep him "informed" to keep him from being scared. I don't want him to think his daddy is always in battle like they show on movies.
It's hard to focus. I'm sitting here writing, and keep feeling stumped, tripping over my emotions. You can't be more proud, scared, helpless, humbled, weak, and incredibly strong all at the same time, and I know Kyle is going through most of those same emotions as he matures with this deployment. Mark said to me the other day, after our second blackout, that I need to use these opportunities to help teach him how to pray. That statement meant so much. I want my baby to pray, but realistically, when I'm praying, I am praying that it isn't my husband. That it is NOT my children's daddy. I'm praying that Gods plan includes him going over there to make our marriage and family communication stronger, and simply that. Any other God fearing woman is praying the same thing, and probably feeling guilty that its almost like she's wishing it on another family, but we aren't. We don't want anyone to get hurt, but war is real. These crazy people over there are real, and they believe they are doing something extraordinary by performing these horrible atrocities. It's sickening, but praying is the only action that I can take against it. I support my soldier, I love him, but I still hate this war. That is all.
We've tried to have a great week even though daddy is gone. July is our month! We got married and had both of our babies this month. So we celebrated for my anniversary, and Kyle's birthday the rest of the week. We went to chili's & sky zone on the 3rd, and went blueberry picking, visited moms where he rode all around on the 4wheeler, rested up and did cake with granny & pawpaw, then off to Stacy's for some fun with friends and fireworks. Friday we drove back home and unloaded, hung out with our neighbors and watched the weather waiting for it to clear up so we could go to the fireworks show on post. It did, and we went. Saturday started out a little crummy, just one of those days where I'm just feeling down, but after a phone call with my love and My extended deployment family time, we ended up having a good day. Cracker Barrel, shopping, milkshakes, and rock of ages.
Here it goes, all the stuff that I try to remember when he is gone to keep me from feeling blue...
I can watch awesome things like rock of ages without him glaring at me wondering why in the world I would want to watch this ridiculous movie. Instead I watched it with Ari, and we sang every time they did! I don't have to shave nearly as often. Winter deployments are best, because then its cold, so bathing suits and shorts aren't in the picture. Having sleepovers with your friends is fun, and she doesn't snore or stink OR flail wildly in her sleep leaving me with overnight battle wounds. I don't have an incredible meal ready for the table at dinner time, because kids are easily impressed, so all that fuss over what to prepare is gone while he's away. My bathroom is my very own, and I'll admit that I've even stuck some of his junk in a different closet so I have more room. My next task may be to sneak home some new bedroom furniture, and see if he notices when he gets home ;)
Just kidding love... I'll try and consult you first!
I hope to spend tomorrow getting everything prepped for Lexie's birthday in just 9 more days now. We're a little behind since she's so indecisive. Now she just wants to have a party and go to the park?? Weird kid, but yay for easy planning! We're headed back to MS for our best friends bash for their kiddos soon.
Goodnight everyone :)
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Day 60, my anniversary tomorrow!
Let me start with the fact that I have now been married 12 years! We have ridden this crazy roller coaster a long time, and each day I'm praying more for him, and clinging tighter to him. Just loving him more each day doesn't say enough. He has become this amazing partner and other half of me who works hard for me, and harder on loving me everyday. He surprises me constantly. I have no idea how all of this will fit inside of my heart, because I love him so much more than the day I married him. I've grown to love him harder and in so many different ways. As a husband, a father, as my best friend, and realize even more every time the other half of me is gone how much more I love him. I love him for for pushing through our hard times, when I wasn't the one pushing. For always being strong and so gentle at the same time. For letting me feel like I take care of everything, but only because he first takes care of me. Simply just putting up with me, and any extra personalities I may have hanging out. I miss him terribly, and wish I was spending the day with him by my side. We've missed out on probably half of our anniversaries! One of my favorite was when I was pregnant ready to bust with lexie. We had been packing and he was doing almost all of the cleaning, because I couldn't bend and reach so well being less than 3 weeks away from my due date. I ran the vacuum and carpet shampooer because standing was the easiest, especially after a crummy fall that involved water in the kitchen floor and a big ole ready to bust me doing the splits! Either way, at the end of the day, he took me to red lobster, because seafood is my favorite! I think I may have gotten 2 shrimp cocktails... But it was just something significant on that year that started pushing us into the marriage and family god had planned for us. I can't imagine, and look forward to every year ahead of us, hoping to hit at least 62 years, and pass my memaw and pawpaws record!
The kids and I have had an awesome couple weeks spending time with family, and heading back to Campbell to spend time with our "family" right here. We've been together just about everyday with our fellow families who have deployed daddies. It's so great to have these women to fill in the gap, keep us company and completely understand struggles. We are even on the same down day schedules when we miss our guys worse some days, and just last night, Ari's family just had a sleepover! After a crummy day of moping, it's nice to just have friends who get it. We've fed each other, watched movies, stressed together through ANoTHeR black out, and tried to keep each other busy and laughing.
Kyle and lexie are adjusting much better having pushed through the first month, and falling into the routine of daddy being gone, where mommy turns into both, and they're afraid!! Just kidding, kinda... They miss daddy, but are staying occupied. I'm headed back home soon, probably just for a short trip to spend Kyle's birthday at home! I'm feeling so blessed to have the love, the babies, and the family that I have. I am on the path he had planned for me.
Mark is doing as well as he can... He's spending his free time pre planning vacations for when he gets back home, which is adorable! He's cleansing right now! I'm always a little shocked by his return home after spending his free time in the gym!
Love you all! Good night :)
The kids and I have had an awesome couple weeks spending time with family, and heading back to Campbell to spend time with our "family" right here. We've been together just about everyday with our fellow families who have deployed daddies. It's so great to have these women to fill in the gap, keep us company and completely understand struggles. We are even on the same down day schedules when we miss our guys worse some days, and just last night, Ari's family just had a sleepover! After a crummy day of moping, it's nice to just have friends who get it. We've fed each other, watched movies, stressed together through ANoTHeR black out, and tried to keep each other busy and laughing.
Kyle and lexie are adjusting much better having pushed through the first month, and falling into the routine of daddy being gone, where mommy turns into both, and they're afraid!! Just kidding, kinda... They miss daddy, but are staying occupied. I'm headed back home soon, probably just for a short trip to spend Kyle's birthday at home! I'm feeling so blessed to have the love, the babies, and the family that I have. I am on the path he had planned for me.
Mark is doing as well as he can... He's spending his free time pre planning vacations for when he gets back home, which is adorable! He's cleansing right now! I'm always a little shocked by his return home after spending his free time in the gym!
Love you all! Good night :)
Monday, June 17, 2013
Day 47... Yeah, it's been a while!
We've been several hundred miles all around in the past couple weeks. Home, to memaws, then back here to Mississippi. Glad we ended up getting a new car, because I'd be broke trying to fill up my Durango for all this driving. I love keeping busy, and as soon as I got back home busy was all that happened. I think my neighbor and I spent more time together in those few days than the past couple months. Weights were lifted off my shoulders spending some time at home with friends, and so glad God put me back home while I was really needed for a few days. Got my baby fix for the moment with the sweet little girl whose daddy just returned from his deployment, and was so excited to know that she pretty much immediately fell into a daddy's girl role! (We worry when our hubby's leave, when we have little bitty ones, what their reaction will be to them). I'm glad he is home with his family, and also appreciative to have his help getting Mark's truck moved & started back up. Apparently his truck is spoiled, and she is acting out since she misses her daddy too... Haha our visit home was finished off with Lexie getting to spend a little time with her friend from school that had to be absent through May. She's missed her buddy!
After spending a few days at home, we took off to hang out with memaw in Paducah. Had a chat filled day with her, and then spent the first night hanging with Meme swimming. Then the next day ended up at the pool at her house again after morning & lunch with memaw. My cousin's son came with us, and they had a blast, even though Kyle wasn't with us... Friday morning, we spent a couple hours looking through photo albums. You know the good ones with the sticky pages! That has always been one of my favorite things to do, and Lexie really enjoyed it as well. She was excited to see all the old pictures. We left there around lunchtime, and I stopped by to visit daddy's grave. It's beautiful where he's buried. I would give anything to have him here for my babies, and everyone else he mattered so much to.
When we got back to MS, we checked out my little brothers new house, went to chili's and back to granny's to wait on our TX family to arrive. Lexie wasn't feeling too well, but perked right up after her cousins, aunt Kimmie & uncle Dave got here though! We haven't seen them since Christmas, so everyone was excited! The weekend was spent with a going away party for him, and Sunday was breakfast & church with my awesome father in law, and then off to see my other daddy. Grateful that all of these incredible hard working men have been placed in my life. Sad that our day lacked the one daddy who means the most to us, and only wish he could keep from missing so many holidays and celebrations.
Today was quiet for the most part, everyone was gone but me for the early afternoon, and then I went to catch up with my Stac & we talked and laughed while Hoot cooked! I hate admitting it, but his sweet potato fries are sooo much better than mine! I love that family... They're my own, really!
Mark is doing well. I hear something from him everyday, but miss my conversations all the time. I miss a lot of simple things. I miss just simply texting him while we're away from each other for the day, sending funny pics or just running him lunch on my way to the gym. I miss my love being in bed with me every night, even if I do get so annoyed with his snoring! (And having to sleep in the middle, and stealing all my covers...) He's sent both the kids a little something, which I'm loving. They're each getting little pieces of understanding that daddy thinks about them and misses them more than they can imagine. You can tell them all day long, but they feel a little something special when they get something personally sent for them. He is amazing.
Our pace should slow down for the next couple of weeks, as we head back home in a couple days to spend some time with our campbell family. July starts the kickoff of a busy beginning of the month with my 12th anniversary (one of many we've missed being together for), Kyle's birthday on the Fourth, the trip to Texas, Stacy's kiddos big bday bash, and Lexie's birthday. Then the month is more than half over, and we'll be preparing for school and football! Moving right along... Seems like forever some days, but all is well with everyone.
Goodnight everyone!
After spending a few days at home, we took off to hang out with memaw in Paducah. Had a chat filled day with her, and then spent the first night hanging with Meme swimming. Then the next day ended up at the pool at her house again after morning & lunch with memaw. My cousin's son came with us, and they had a blast, even though Kyle wasn't with us... Friday morning, we spent a couple hours looking through photo albums. You know the good ones with the sticky pages! That has always been one of my favorite things to do, and Lexie really enjoyed it as well. She was excited to see all the old pictures. We left there around lunchtime, and I stopped by to visit daddy's grave. It's beautiful where he's buried. I would give anything to have him here for my babies, and everyone else he mattered so much to.
When we got back to MS, we checked out my little brothers new house, went to chili's and back to granny's to wait on our TX family to arrive. Lexie wasn't feeling too well, but perked right up after her cousins, aunt Kimmie & uncle Dave got here though! We haven't seen them since Christmas, so everyone was excited! The weekend was spent with a going away party for him, and Sunday was breakfast & church with my awesome father in law, and then off to see my other daddy. Grateful that all of these incredible hard working men have been placed in my life. Sad that our day lacked the one daddy who means the most to us, and only wish he could keep from missing so many holidays and celebrations.
Today was quiet for the most part, everyone was gone but me for the early afternoon, and then I went to catch up with my Stac & we talked and laughed while Hoot cooked! I hate admitting it, but his sweet potato fries are sooo much better than mine! I love that family... They're my own, really!
Mark is doing well. I hear something from him everyday, but miss my conversations all the time. I miss a lot of simple things. I miss just simply texting him while we're away from each other for the day, sending funny pics or just running him lunch on my way to the gym. I miss my love being in bed with me every night, even if I do get so annoyed with his snoring! (And having to sleep in the middle, and stealing all my covers...) He's sent both the kids a little something, which I'm loving. They're each getting little pieces of understanding that daddy thinks about them and misses them more than they can imagine. You can tell them all day long, but they feel a little something special when they get something personally sent for them. He is amazing.
Our pace should slow down for the next couple of weeks, as we head back home in a couple days to spend some time with our campbell family. July starts the kickoff of a busy beginning of the month with my 12th anniversary (one of many we've missed being together for), Kyle's birthday on the Fourth, the trip to Texas, Stacy's kiddos big bday bash, and Lexie's birthday. Then the month is more than half over, and we'll be preparing for school and football! Moving right along... Seems like forever some days, but all is well with everyone.
Goodnight everyone!
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Day 38
Let me start by saying, I'm glad I got home when I did :/
I'm finally comfy in my own bed, and my neighbor really needed me tonight! Glad I was here to help....
Lexie, Charlie, and I hit the road today to come back home and check on our friends here. We've been enjoying family time, but ready to be back at home, for a few nights anyway.... Then off to memaws and back to MS to see my favorite nephews!!! I'm so excited I can't stand it to see those boys.
Things have definitely settled down since our crazy day that I last wrote about. I've talked to my love pretty frequently, and had several things going on to keep us busy. The kids had a blast at VBS all week, and I enjoyed going to see them perform at the end of it all on Friday. I saw and chatted with a friend i havent seen in a couple years, too. Then a great afternoon with Sarah and all our kiddos, minus Micah. We let the girls pick what we ate for lunch, so of course, we ended up at the McDonald's play land. Maybe not so great, but they had a blast playing. Then off to her house for a few hours of sun and swimming for the afternoon. Busy busy is the best way to make these days go by faster. It's only been a little over a month, but those 2 weeks at home went pretty quick, and I'm sure the next few will too.
After an unusually eventful Friday night, with one wetting the bed and one awake early up chucking (from what he swears was one chip), we tried to get a little more sleep. Lexie however was wide awake right as I got comfy again, practically demanding cereal & juice. This is my child that usually is sleeping in, but couldn't be persuaded to do so today. It's funny too how lately she wakes up and immediately want cereal, just like her daddy. Unless he's off to PT, he has to eat before he turns into a crud from one of those snickers commercials! Haaa! Gotta love that Russell blood :) Kyle is more like me, where he'd rather skip and go straight to lunch, or have random leftover dinner food for breakfast. He'll settle for cereal, but would chunk it in the trash for a hot pocket! I adore my family, as crazy as they make me.
Mark wasn't able to call today around his normal lunchtime call. I looked forward to it since I was driving home, then couldn't talk very long this evening. Enough to help me figure out which charger to use for his truck, since it was dead when I got home, and to walk me through starting up the bike, since Kyle didn't come back to handle that! We did get to talk a while just a couple days ago! I love long conversations with him, because its like a mental & emotional recharge.
When we got home, Connor & Kaydee were immediately running out the door to see us, and we all went inside for mamas to catch up, and kiddos to play while I sorted through mail and papers. Then we pulled out slip and slides for a little water fun for them. When it was all over, my baby girl and I came in & she had some chicken nuggets, pickles, and cheese.. Then pretty much crashed after reading our new book from Dolly Parton! Looking forward to the next few busy days!
I'm finally comfy in my own bed, and my neighbor really needed me tonight! Glad I was here to help....
Lexie, Charlie, and I hit the road today to come back home and check on our friends here. We've been enjoying family time, but ready to be back at home, for a few nights anyway.... Then off to memaws and back to MS to see my favorite nephews!!! I'm so excited I can't stand it to see those boys.
Things have definitely settled down since our crazy day that I last wrote about. I've talked to my love pretty frequently, and had several things going on to keep us busy. The kids had a blast at VBS all week, and I enjoyed going to see them perform at the end of it all on Friday. I saw and chatted with a friend i havent seen in a couple years, too. Then a great afternoon with Sarah and all our kiddos, minus Micah. We let the girls pick what we ate for lunch, so of course, we ended up at the McDonald's play land. Maybe not so great, but they had a blast playing. Then off to her house for a few hours of sun and swimming for the afternoon. Busy busy is the best way to make these days go by faster. It's only been a little over a month, but those 2 weeks at home went pretty quick, and I'm sure the next few will too.
After an unusually eventful Friday night, with one wetting the bed and one awake early up chucking (from what he swears was one chip), we tried to get a little more sleep. Lexie however was wide awake right as I got comfy again, practically demanding cereal & juice. This is my child that usually is sleeping in, but couldn't be persuaded to do so today. It's funny too how lately she wakes up and immediately want cereal, just like her daddy. Unless he's off to PT, he has to eat before he turns into a crud from one of those snickers commercials! Haaa! Gotta love that Russell blood :) Kyle is more like me, where he'd rather skip and go straight to lunch, or have random leftover dinner food for breakfast. He'll settle for cereal, but would chunk it in the trash for a hot pocket! I adore my family, as crazy as they make me.
Mark wasn't able to call today around his normal lunchtime call. I looked forward to it since I was driving home, then couldn't talk very long this evening. Enough to help me figure out which charger to use for his truck, since it was dead when I got home, and to walk me through starting up the bike, since Kyle didn't come back to handle that! We did get to talk a while just a couple days ago! I love long conversations with him, because its like a mental & emotional recharge.
When we got home, Connor & Kaydee were immediately running out the door to see us, and we all went inside for mamas to catch up, and kiddos to play while I sorted through mail and papers. Then we pulled out slip and slides for a little water fun for them. When it was all over, my baby girl and I came in & she had some chicken nuggets, pickles, and cheese.. Then pretty much crashed after reading our new book from Dolly Parton! Looking forward to the next few busy days!
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