Day 33

I can't explain what it is, the feeling when everything is  spinning in circles, and for 2 days in a row, I've not gotten a call from my hubby when I normally expect it.  I know they have issues with the phones, and the Internet.  I didn't hear from him yesterday morning, so the rest of the day is a blur.  You can't help but worry that something has gone wrong.  So, last night I get a call.  It's his usual morning call to tell me goodnight.  He only talked for a minute, saying they had bad weather the night before, so the phones were out.  Then a message from him in the middle of the night, but again this morning... no phone call at what's becoming his usual time to call.
If he was just in the field, or training, this would be different.  He is not.  He's in a country where people use weapons and grenades as a form of communication.  Where he sleeps with some M4 or something instead of his wife, where he's constantly watching and correcting and training soldiers as if they were his own kids playing too close to the road.  I know he calls me as soon as he is able, but in the meantime, a wife worries to death and tries to put on a smile and throw in some laughs, and not be too impatient with her kids because of the stress it causes.  You have no idea, unless you're spouse is doing the same...

It is just another few days passed, we haven't had the busy schedule that I expected coming home, with friends and family out of town.  Vbs has just started, and then we'll be heading back home for a week until our family comes up from Texas.
Had to handle something today that honestly shouldn't have even been my concern anymore.  But must follow processes to wipe slates clean I suppose.  Thankfully I had a few hours this morning to myself, and a few hours at moms chatting with my sis and letting my little wild ones swim some energy out.  Mom cooked lasagna :) pretty awesome!  Was supposed to go on a dinner date with a lady in town who is renting my house, but she cancelled, not feeling well.  Glad it worked out that way though, because it was much better than chili's would've been!


  I should be getting a phone call soon, lets hope...